This is a post about my REAL relationship with Jesus. It's not JUST a platonic. He and I have been on quite a journey together, starting with Catholic elementary school...
Even for those of us not anywhere near the practice of spiritual renunciation, the construct of celibacy as a bastion of purity and virtue still has an unconscious shaming effect on the psyche of those of us who have been influenced by any major organized spiritual tradition.
Are you able to track your own needs and feelings while in connection with another person? It's not a skill that everyone has! And it can be learned...